sometimes it just sucks to open up your sweaty palms and let go of your own ideals, your own expectations; lettting go of control.
what an illusion control is, anways.
you just have to enter, and be okay with, the unknown path that winds out before you; letting your blueprints be scratched out so God can draw up something better.
we forget sometimes that any [crazy] thing can happen in any given moment- in reality, the only thing we actually have control over is the way we react, the way we see and deal with things.
so believe God has a better plan, and don't settle for anything less than Him: His timing, His design, His perfect love. because we get so mixed up sometimes when we bring ourselves and our desires into the equation: we start to live with a sort of hopeless desperation, thinking that "this is my last chance at a relationship" or "this is my last chance at a decent job" and we lower His standards due to our impatience, our unwillingness to trust, our desperate need to control something. friends, let it slip out of your hands. do your part, put in all the effort, but do not try to take control. do not try to replace the spirit with flesh. do not try to make something partial bigger than it is to fill a whole.
we must learn to live by faith and not by sight; do not wait for a sign direct from heaven to make a 180° decision when you can already feel His whisper in your heart, when you can already see the breath of His words winding in through they keyhole to the door you've tried to keep closed. don't ignore His fingertips stretching out to brush your heart.
quit demanding clarity and trust in Him.
