sometimes it’s so hard for me to be obedient to God because i know He’s calling me to something far outside my comfort zone. it’s difficult for me to trust Him and to feel comfortable taking risks in His name.
so when i found myself alone the other day (a rare moment), i began to mull over the thought that always comes to attack when i’m about to be thrust outside my comfort zone:
“what happens if God asks me to do something, but He doesn’t do His part?”
like, what happens if i pray for somebody and I ask God to give me a word to share with them, but He doesn’t give me anything?
or what happens if one of my friends comes to me broken, but i have no in-the-moment profound Godly advice for them?
what happens if God asks me to share a specific word with someone on the street, but the word means nothing to them?
not even a minute goes has gone by since I think this when God whispers “what if you’re unable hear or carry out My instructions because your heart isn’t in the right place?”
whoa.
here i am, freaking out that God won’t come through, when the real reason for which i should be freaking out is because i haven’t invested into my relationship with Him lately. instead of having a nervous breakdown that He won’t speak, i should be more worried that my own ears aren’t open or receptive to His words.
that’s exactly my issue. and perhaps it’s yours, too. sometimes we worry so much that God won’t follow through on His promises, yet somehow we forget that He’s always true to His word and His timing is perfect. we forget that if we are truly chasing after Him, there should be no room for doubt. God wants open ears to hear Him. He wants wide-open eyes to see like He does. God wants a willing heart. He wants a willing, open, vulnerable, risk-taking heart, one that will be able to begin to understand His. once we get to that point, we’ll be so much more ready to run right into the the risks He calls us to, knowing not only that He is in control and will carry out His will, but that we are in tune with His heart.
and what better place to be than to be in tune with Him.
