bathroom conversation

it's funny how the bathroom sometimes pulls out of us the most honest conversations. the other day me & several of my girls were chatting about who are favorite singers were- of course our "platica" (talk) then digressed to celebrities, and wouldn't you know, Miley Cyrus. "what a trainwreck," we both said, and then as an afterthought, i added "but there's still hope for her. not all's lost. she's just an example of someone who has everything at her fingertips and let it ruin her. sometimes i have to think how we would be if we were in her position, you know? fame really tests a person."

she said to me, "I think if i were living outside in the world, i'd be alot like her... probably even worse."

what an honest comment.

i responded, "lady, that's so true for me too," & shared with her a shred of my testimony. i found that we both know what it feels like to search out something in the world to give you peace but in the end not have peace at all. 

living with God is so much more than having your several months of brilliant crash-and-burn
in the public eye. God fills you up with purpose. the rest of this world sucks purpose from you, and you have to keep running back to vices to make yourself feel whole..

but the wholeness always seeps away.

the drugs, drinking, parties, sex, flirting, boyfriend bouncing, cruising, thugging, late night high life is 

NEVER

going to be enough.

and maybe you already know that. 

but you really ought to start believing it.

because until you do, you will continue to discover less and less substance to your life, and will keep feeling incredibly unhappy and unsatisfied with everything. 

do you get why you feel so much emptiness? it's because the only thing that is ever going to be enough is life with Him. 

nothing else can do it for you.